Why is failure an acceptable way out?
Something has come to my attention lately that is a little bit scary. I have started to see a trend in the things that I do, and it all seems the same. Failure has become an escape, and a way out. Instead of using failure to get better, and seeing it as a lesson or a learning opportunity, people are starting to use it as a way to just stop what they are doing. And I have zero understanding of why people are doing this. Which just makes the whole thing worse.
Instead of wanting to get better, try harder, or just overall continue to do something, they just fail as quick as they can so that they can claim they are bad at it. It's like a little kid that doesn't want to do the dishes so the first time they do it, they mess it up really badly. After messing up that badly how can they ever be asked to do something that they hate so much as doing the dishes? There is so much flawed with that.
I can't really lie and say that I have never thought about it. Like wow, if I just really sucked at this and failed, then people would stop expecting me to keep doing it. School for example. If I got crappy grades, they maybe people would stop bugging me about what my grades are because they just wouldn't care. But then I take two seconds to think about it, and I realized that as much as I hate school, and I really don't like grades or assessment, it's a part of what I am doing, so why not just try. I don't understand how anybody can go through anything without at least trying.
And there is a difference between trying once and then deciding not to do it, and not trying just to get out of it. One shows character and effort, and the other just shows that you are extremely lazy, and probably shouldn't be allowed to do whatever it was in the first place.
I get so mad when I don't at least try to do something. And let's be clear, I am not talking about eating new foods (which by the way don't ever ask me to do, I am a very picky eater), or riding some stupid roller coaster that scares the hell out of me; I am talking about actual skills, work, or activities. Why not try a new video technique? Why not try to make something that I am not 100% sure I can do? Why?
I really hate to fail at anything I do. I really hate to now know things. And I really hate when I can't do something that I think I should be able to do. It just really bothers me. I have never been able to understand why anybody would ever want to be just okay at something, or not even give themselves the chance to learn something or to try something that could benefit their life.
For the first time, I honestly have no clue. And, ironically, that bothers me! I am floored at the amount of people who just don't care, and are so content living their lives day after day not changing or growing. It just makes no sense. I don't know if I will ever understand, but damn it's annoying. And not knowing if I will understand just makes it worse. Because not only am I constantly thinking about it, but in my head it's not okay that I don't know the answer. So now I am thinking about knowing the answer to why I don't know the answer to something else. And then it just spirals.
Hope you enjoyed the week's peak into my crazy, jumbled, disorganized brain.